Hay House, you never cease to amaze me!✝❤✝
What I don’t like is false people coming on to me
I don’t like lies and I don’t like to tease you see
If you want a piece of me- come see my face
Right now in this time and place
All we got is right now in this present place
I’m trippin’ in my soul that’s who I am
Hittin each corner with a testimony bam
I rep a place that’s holy as hell
It’s sacred what we sale
I gotta lotta love in my heart
Imma give it from the start
This game gonna get reversed
So get all that drama unearthed
You wanna watch me spit this verse
Come to my show and open a chakra
Love on me slow with a gentle nerve
Open your crown and create a merkaba
Oh yeah that good ass prana
Trust me, I do understand ya
Imma blast out this love to yall
Send it in a tidewave out real far
Let’s envision it together now
End the fighting, cease the wars
Create in our minds a better way
Speak from our hearts a kinder day
Free will is our choice to make
There is so much at stake
Choose the good, high red road
The one that leads us home
Ok, God, I get it. You want all of me. The totality that is me. All of my heart and soul, my mind and every cell that breathes you in. It’s all Yours because you wonderfully made me and I’m only above this ground living to serve you because of Your Grace granted to me on the daily.
Today is my third day off opioids. It is done. I had a choice to continue on them when my current opioid was discontinued from the pharmacy. I would have had to switch to a more potent form of them and go to classes to learn about the rules again pertaining to these types of medications. I had participated in the pain clinic before and it really wasn’t something that I wanted to repeat. So, I told my doc, let’s wean me off them and try alternative approaches.
I’m currently off the opioids. I’m on a small course of Prednisone to sort of adjust the pain in my body to get used to not having them and to settle the flare that came as a result of tapering. Then, I have a week of just anti inflammation and my nerve stabilizing medication. I hope I do okay that week. After that, I’m getting another cortisone injection in my back. Those work well for 6-10 months on me. I have degenerative disc disease that causes chronic severe back pain and immobility. However I’ve been doing good on my opioid meds mixed with the nerve and inflammation meds. So, this new regime is a test to see how it works. I’m hoping it will put me in a better state of health and that the pain will be controlled.
I’ve had few withdrawal symptoms from the opioids. I am taking some withdrawal meds tho. My main symptoms have been diarrhea, feet tingling and insomnia at times.
I’m back to smoking but hope to resume non smoking status once I can refill my non smoking aid medications.
My life these days: Detox, Detox, Detox!!!
Every pill or cigarette you don’t take or smoke is a milestone in the right direction, remember that.
Take strides toward your health, baby steps, or crawl. Just move toward your goal and make progress. Eventually you’ll look up and see yourself sprinting!
One with you in recovery…
Keep coming back.
Keep it simple.
One day at a time.
If I die today, know I loved you
Know I loved you yesterday
Who are you?
Why didn’t you visit me or answer my calls?
Were you ever concerned about me at all?
Would you ever accept my apology?
Did those messages come thru and did you record them?
Do you blame me for everything the way that I do you?
How can we fix this mess?
Why do you think you have had such a profound affect on me and my life?
Are you willing to answer these questions?
If not, why?
Do you think I still care about any of this?
You’ve moved on, why can’t I?
Do you cry like I do at night when I think about what might have been?
Do you know that in this life I have been two people?
I give and do you even know that I do?
Do you even see me? Feel me? Know me?